Today we find out the results of the recent Biopsy Monday the 9th December

This is my second appointment and although the news isn't good from the first sit down with my the professor of Radiology. I am positive I will overcome what comes to me next even be it bad news. The idea is to keep positive and move to the next plan B....my appointment is at 10.30 and  will know what the next step is.
Why does times drag when your waiting for an appointment ? hence I am sitting in the breast clinic lots of people gathering for appointments .  I am a little tensed and there is a door automatically opening and closing . How irritating is it normally I wouldn't mind but wow this irritates. I feel like I've been sitting here for ages but with all intense purposes I've turned up early..my husband looks at the time and we are early. I first found a lump a few months and the reason for writing this blog is to express how important it is to never speak out through embarrassment , Its silly to hold back and leave things. Always speak to your GP about your concerns.  I can say the my GP is the most approachable GP but  stupidly I left this ,  I never followed up this problem due to all the times I've been managing other illnesses that have taken a grasp of my life.
I had so many dreams when I was younger to be an actress a big star of the screen but along the way it became increasingly difficult for me to fulfil some of my hopes and dreams due to illness or stress related issues.
A very good friend when I was at school moulded the start of my teenage years to whom I thank . My friend Natalie Hawes had leukaemia and I never understood why she was taken so young. One thing I learnt about her is that her mum said she always talks about me , Sonia this Sonia that . why do we find this out when people have gone and its too late.  The British stiff upper lip doesn't allow us to always show how we feel. I made it my way to always tell people how I feel. If I care , if I think there good at something but always express how I feel. if there good at what they do , there job singing , art and more.
Anyway back to the appointment I went into a small room and spoke to a breast specialist she shook her head ( I  knew then this was Cancer )   My only real option available had been put forward to there specialist multi disciplinary team was to have a mastectomy on the right breast, I wondered whether there was any chance of the tumours being reduced but this wasn't the option available.
They were very kind and sensitive and asked me if I wanted to ask any questions. I didn't really have anything to ask at that point . However I agreed to surgery  and they had a space available that coming Thursday 12 the of December.  The surgeon wanted one of the certain anaesthetist and they were available that day so I thought at that point the inevitable would happen. I thought the  sooner it was done the better